Thoughts on Kindergarten....

Erin:  "Mommy who do I look like?"

Me: Ummm, Dora?

Erin:  "No, an expert camper of course!"

Erin: rushes out of the bathroom

Me: burst into tears in the shower

This is my girl Erin. 

My first born. 

The person who made me a mommy.

The person who has changed my life the most.

My biggest helper.

The best big sister to Eoin and Bridgie

My best friend.

Kindergarten is Friday.

I am nervous, anxious, and self-doubting.

I am going to miss her.

I will be lonely.

I will feel like something is missing all day long.

I probably won't eat much or do much that day.

I will be waiting.

And waiting.

And waiting.

I will be at the bus stop 15 minutes early.

I will be nervous, anxious, and self-doubting.

She will be fine.

She will probably love it.

Her teacher will be so smart and funny.

She will make a friend.

She will be a kindergartner.

I would love to tell you that I am okay with all of the kindergarten stuff and that I think it is so exciting.  I wish I could lie and tell you that.  I wish that I believed that public or private education was good enough for my child.  I wish that I could tell you I thought "school" was good for her.  I wish that my faith in other people was stronger.  I believe in God and I know God and that is why I will put her on that bus with that bus driver that I do not know.  And I will pray that he does not decide to drive off into the sunset with my child, my best friend, my life. 

And I will pray.

And I will pray.

And I will pray.

And I will put on a brave face.  And I will listen to her.  And I will learn from her.  And I will advocate for her in any fashion necessary.  And we will both grow.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".

Jeremiah 29:11



Nicknames

Bridgie

Bridge-a-Boo

Boo Boo

Little Loo La

Loo Loo

Loo-Loo- Belle

Bridge-a-lidge-a

Bunny Foo Foo



Stinker Hein

Baby Girl

This little lady is never going to know what to tell people her name is.

Mermaid



"I must be a mermaid, Rango. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living."

Anais Nin 

 

There is something quite amazing and moving to watch a child, your child, glide through the water with ease and confidence.

Especially when said child has taught herself through trial and error. I love the pure joy and excitement on her face when she swims back to the wall after jumping in the deep water.  The almost smug satisfaction on her little face when we tell her how proud of her we are.

From not taking her feet off the ground to jumping into the diving well in one summer.

Wonderful.

 

 

dem thar soybeans....

At Gi Gi's old tyme country fair in Emmitsburg, Maryland

For 2 years running, my kids have had the most fun in these boxes of soybeans and corn kernels.

GENIUS!

Hmm, what can I do with these....

Bob for bugs?

Not so bad....

2 second delay....blehhhh.....

Eoin gets an H for hilarity.  He was never one to fit into a category.